Last Ramblings of 2008

Can I summarize what this year has been in one blog post? Nope. Will I try? Why the heck not? I don't have anything better to do. I mean I do, but I'm a procrastinator, so I'll do this instead.

Something borrowed, something not given back

We moved this year. After moving in together last year, we moved yet again, this year, because of our psycho ex-neighbors. They liked to do lots of fun things including but not limited to: lifting weights at 3 a.m. and dropping them, blocking in our cars and verbally threatening us about it, having parties on weeknights, verbally threatening us some more, being loud, being crazy and loud, being shady. There is so much more but I prefer not to jump into that part of my brain that has already repressed it. So, we moved. We are living in a great place now. Our neighbors are dead. (We didn't kill them, it's a graveyard). On the whole it's pretty peaceful here, and we have a good amount of space. However, it gets pretty cold, lack of good insulation. Argh.

The Twilight of Our Years

I read the twilight series. Yes, you heard correctly, the series for middle school students about vampires and falling in love. I was curious. Let me tell you though, even though those books were so poorly written they could've been written by middle schoolers, I liked them anyway. I don't know what drew me to poorly done middle school literature, but I read ravenously, until I finished all the books, a day or two later.

Snotty Mcgee

I had the supercold of the year. Seriously. I have not had so much snot come of me since, I have no idea when. Pretty pathetic, but true. And now Pierre thinks he's coming down with it, poor child. I probably got it from the pre school kids I was teaching. Kids are always snotty. But they're cute. I'll miss those lil ones while I do student teaching. It's at times like these that I wish I was superwoman like my mom and could have a full time job and student teach, but i don't feel like killing myself this spring.

Messy Jessie

My mom comes by the other day and is overwhelmed by the mess. You know what I want to say to her. HEY LADY. I DON'T HAVE A HOUSEKEEPER. AND I'M NOT GOOD AT THIS CLEANING THING. AND NEITHER IS MY FIANCEE. OH AND WE HAVE BEEN PACKING HIS MOM UP FOR FLORIDA, SO WE HAVE NOT BEEN AROUND. Or I could just say this.
I need to work on my cleaning skills .. . or lack thereof.

Dropping of the Shiny Ball

So New Year's is rapidly approaching, and of course all my well intentioned plans fall apart. We'll be lucky if we have 6 guests. I wonder, when, one day, I'll actually be able to have a successful dinner party, or am I forever doomed to be horrible at entertaining and party planning, and does it even matter? I try to be a good hostess and planner, but no one really gives a crap. I think to myself, why do I attempt these gatherings and stuff? Cause I'm a momma type and I love my friends, and despite all of our shortcomings I love seeing them, for however long I can. I'm a sucker. Jessie=Pathetic.

So, in my snotty state of post cold insanity, off I go to attempt to clean my apartment and fail miserably . ..
wishing the one dude in Japan who reads this a great new year
and to all a good day ( I tip my hat to you)(whoever actually reads this).
Ciao.

Do I Wish I Could Go Back to College?

"I wish I could go back to college. In college you know who you are."-Avenue Q the Musical

Is this true? That in college you really discover yourself and you find your true identity? I don't really buy it, but I do know that college is a very unique time in life when you can truly think about identity and what values you hold true. It's funny, I never missed college a whole lot. I mean, there were certain times I would love to repeat, but other things I am happy are over. However, the one thing I miss terribly is the proximity. We were all so physically close. You could walk over to a building to see your friends. Everyone was always online, so you could talk to them on aim, and then go say hi, and it just felt so wonderful to have people you cared about all in the same place.
And then it was gone, just like that. I graduated and had to face the reality of life which was, I didn't live at college. I had to get a job, and focus on my future, and I couldn't walk over to ML to see Tina, I'd have to drive for a half hour on the highway, and most likely, she wouldn't be home, because she now has graduated too, and is searching for a way to make a living or even a life.
I mean, I have a wonderful fiancee, who I love dearly, and am truly grateful to have him in my life. But no one takes the place of friends who you love dearly.
I was always one of those optimistic kids who was like, "Of course this isn't goodbye. We're TOTALLY gonna visit each other, in fact, I'll call you when I get home" kind of a thing. Well, life isn't that easy or convenient, despite the internet and phone.
I decided with Pierre yesterday to do a little New Year's get together. And when he asked me why I invited so many people, I told him, that in actuality only like 10 will come at most, because most people have plans, or have a life, or obligations, and don't feel like shlepping to our house, or are on vacation, or whatever. People have their own lives. We are not in college where everything revolved around our social lives with some academics thrown in.
Right now, I'm thinking to myself, that I am grateful and happy where I am, but you know what I would like for the holidays? Just to have one night with some of my friends and my fiancee, just one night to catch up and see their smiling faces in person. Is that really too much to ask? I guess in today's world it is. And in actuality, no matter what happens for new year's, it's never what you think it's gonna be, because despite all of the hype the media gives it, not everyone has access to "the club" or "the party", and some people don't want to get so drunk that they can't remember their name the next morning. I like to be able to identify myself without having to wear a nametag, thank you very much.

Diamonds and Orchids and Designer Gowns- oh my!

I was watching a show called "Platinum Weddings" earlier today. It was a marathon of "Platinum Weddings", actually. Oh man. One of these shows I was watching, they had six courses of food. Six courses, hmmm. I don't know if that's really necessary. I feel like the weddings we see on TV are all about excess. It's as if a normal man and woman finding each other aren't good enough, we have to dazzle it up with jewels and sparkly chandeliers and make it so grossly over the top that it wows everyone who walks in the door. Who started this tradition of having grossly overstated weddings?
I wonder. I mean, I always thought of weddings as things in huge churches, with high ceilings, and dressed with long trains. However, there are other people in the world, besides Christians, and other places to get married, that don't have high ceilings. And it's not even really about the ceremony, it's all about the reception.
While watching this show today, I was amazed at the insanity of some people's receptions. One couple had a white "seamless" dance floor put in. I don't even know what that means. Another couple had various Las Vegas acts perform and two bands, and fireworks and pyrotechnics. There are children starving in Africa, why do you need fireworks at your wedding?
Another couple had over 50,000 dollars worth of flowers at their wedding. I mean I love flowers, but don't they want to save for retirement?
I feel like people think that weddings are outside all practical and rational thought. But the truth is that they are far from it. One must think rationally about these affairs, otherwise they become larger than life, and larger than the thing they are actually celebrating.