Do I Wish I Could Go Back to College?

"I wish I could go back to college. In college you know who you are."-Avenue Q the Musical

Is this true? That in college you really discover yourself and you find your true identity? I don't really buy it, but I do know that college is a very unique time in life when you can truly think about identity and what values you hold true. It's funny, I never missed college a whole lot. I mean, there were certain times I would love to repeat, but other things I am happy are over. However, the one thing I miss terribly is the proximity. We were all so physically close. You could walk over to a building to see your friends. Everyone was always online, so you could talk to them on aim, and then go say hi, and it just felt so wonderful to have people you cared about all in the same place.
And then it was gone, just like that. I graduated and had to face the reality of life which was, I didn't live at college. I had to get a job, and focus on my future, and I couldn't walk over to ML to see Tina, I'd have to drive for a half hour on the highway, and most likely, she wouldn't be home, because she now has graduated too, and is searching for a way to make a living or even a life.
I mean, I have a wonderful fiancee, who I love dearly, and am truly grateful to have him in my life. But no one takes the place of friends who you love dearly.
I was always one of those optimistic kids who was like, "Of course this isn't goodbye. We're TOTALLY gonna visit each other, in fact, I'll call you when I get home" kind of a thing. Well, life isn't that easy or convenient, despite the internet and phone.
I decided with Pierre yesterday to do a little New Year's get together. And when he asked me why I invited so many people, I told him, that in actuality only like 10 will come at most, because most people have plans, or have a life, or obligations, and don't feel like shlepping to our house, or are on vacation, or whatever. People have their own lives. We are not in college where everything revolved around our social lives with some academics thrown in.
Right now, I'm thinking to myself, that I am grateful and happy where I am, but you know what I would like for the holidays? Just to have one night with some of my friends and my fiancee, just one night to catch up and see their smiling faces in person. Is that really too much to ask? I guess in today's world it is. And in actuality, no matter what happens for new year's, it's never what you think it's gonna be, because despite all of the hype the media gives it, not everyone has access to "the club" or "the party", and some people don't want to get so drunk that they can't remember their name the next morning. I like to be able to identify myself without having to wear a nametag, thank you very much.